z-e-p-h-y-r: 9crimes.

†Tuesday, April 28, 2009†

For those who have asked: Yes, I've moved. Mostly for convenience.
This blog holds many memories so I'm not deleting it. I still don't know exactly who reads this, so I'm considering locking it. Drop me a comment over there if you're so inclined so I can put a name to those IPs!

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†Friday, February 20, 2009†

::listening to "layla" by eric clapton w/ mark knopfler::

perspectives

What'll you do when you get lonely
And nobody's waiting by your side?
You've been running and hiding much too long.
You know it's just your foolish pride.

today i saw a girl on the bus.
she was vaguely familar, like someone from the past.

we ran towards the bus together, nearly falling over ourselves. i was reminded of something that perhaps, i didn't want to remember. she smiled at me, an impish little half grin- shrugging off our foolishness. and i remembered.

a pretty long time ago, i thought i had what i always wanted. something that my pride will not permit for me to state. for however brief a time frame, i was happy. whenever i look back now, there's still a twinge of sadness over the disappointments, and even regret. but sometimes good things aren't meant to last. i once thought of other outcomes, and what if's. but i wouldn't have it any other way, despite the consequences. i knew i couldn't have it both ways, but what i ultimately got does indeed give me a great deal of comfort. time does fly- it was months, and now years. it was nice while it lasted, thanks for the memories. perhaps one day, things will be different.

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†Wednesday, February 04, 2009†

::listening to "romulus" by sufjan stevens::

this ends soon. i don't know how, but i'll think of something.
i have to take charge.
change should and must happen, as adverse i am to it.
i wish i knew how.

this dull throb feels vaguely familiar.
the world moves but i'm here, standing still.
and it's here where i'm alone. all alone.

where's that shoulder when you need one?
maybe i really am repressed.

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†Friday, January 23, 2009†

::listening to "decode" by paramore::

hello.

tagged by the danielle, and being the insomniac i am i'm doing it at 3:30am. =\
16 random shit about me-
Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 16 random things, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end choose 16 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, its because I want to know more about you.

1. i am usually more disappointed / affected then i let on.
2. i am addicted to grey's anatomy. and contrary to popular belief it's not ALL about mcdreamy. he just plays a part!
3. my personality type is ISFP.
4. i watch too much natgeo and discovery. friends say i'm a closet geek :(
5. i am not a morning person. in fact. i need to lie somewhere well lit (or draw the binds) for like 10 minutes before i can get up. you can call it solar charging. as such, chances of me showing my face for 9am classes are greatly increased (!) if nice friends ("WTF skye if you kup my dian wei one more time i will chop you!!") will morning call me.
6. i have a bandwidth hogging brother. lately tho, i've become a cold hearted bitch who pulls his $%@ cable out of my router when my ping hits 1k in fucking naxxramas.
7. my room is loosely described as an "organized mess".
8. i sometimes wish i could further my studies overseas.
9. when i am secretly emo and need a mush fix i watch mushy movies alone so i can rewind the mushy bits if i want to. i know. very un-skye.
10. when desperate for mush fix decided to read twilight series. i read all 4 in a sick omfg so mushy but i must finish fever. mush finale was urgh, bad.
11. my biggest dream is a loft apartment with a nice view.
12. i sometimes wish i were more extroverted.
13. i don't need many friends. i just need a few good ones.
14. ian and i have recently concluded that we are two very cynical people. we spent most of the time sniggering at bad cliche love songs at a recent wedding.
15. choice of genres: indie, alternative, and metal. i also spend too much money on cds.
16. i also still want to start the drippy (lau zup!) sausage band! the da neow can be the enthusiastic sacrificial lamb who PRs with dodgy fans while the rest of the band escapes from the scene. it would be perfect.

tagging anyone who wants to do it. mainly because i am lazy to think of people to tag. :D

new year, new semester. i hate school and its 9am bullshit. -_- is it sad when you blog more on school blogs then your own? our lecturers nowadays like to keh kiang and ask us to make blogs. i think they just like to see emo students struggle trying to write something mildly impressive sounding or have deluded themselves into thinking students will open up to them in said blogs. mons and weds are good days tho, can see everyone! day is greatly improved when i talk cock with lydz and co.

am spending my chinese new year ALONE, unless you count my bandwidth hogging brother. parents are flying to korea tmr on nth honeymoon. on the plus side, i get to stay at mr ho's and leech his electricity etc, dad has loaned the car to him (then he can drive me around! personal ahmad), and they've agreed to let me go to taiwan with friends next sem break. pleased :D going to see mogwai tmr. and wtb jason mraz tickets! :(

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†Saturday, November 01, 2008†

::listening to "hotel california" by the eagles::

azure

today was one of those days. i was tired- had only 3.5 hours of sleep the night before. up mugging for a completely redundant paper. i wanted to go straight home after the 9AM paper, but decided to chill with my classmates for abit. they ARE the reason why school is bearable, even fun. i wish i spent more time with them, but sometimes the urge to skip class is overpowering. came home shit-faced, and collapsed into bed. had guitar at 2, and i actually didn't feel like going. contemplated not going. haven't been to class for 2 weeks due to shitty hectic schedule.

still. i dragged myself out of bed, and headed to cityhall without lunch. lesson was grueling- i even got nagged at. but just playing again re-motivates me. it was a small bit of happiness after the shitty start of the day. as i walked to the station with iron maiden in my ears and the warm sun against my back, i actually felt content. the day was perfect- slightly overcast azure skies, the air cool with the sun feeling pleasantly warm for once- not humid and sticky. the shit day turned out to be a okay one, and not the disaster i envisioned it to be; given my current sleep deprived state. it's moments like these that i live for.

the weekend's finally here- TGIF. time to pick up the shiney orville from setup, watch movies, sit in bed and geek out over nat geo with mr ho, stuff my face, buy the last book of twilight, and play wow. oh joy. :D

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†Tuesday, October 14, 2008†

::listening to "gobbledigook" by sigur rós::

lazybum :P

i must say this cat looks like you and i cannot lie! hurhur! the grumpy expression and the posture is UNCANNY. D:

i'll update when the mood next strikes me. :D

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†Wednesday, September 17, 2008†

::listening to "free fallin'" by john mayer::

orville

i'm getting a new shineeyy guitar. selling the strat and buying a '92 lemon drop orville. can share with ianz! quite excited about getting a new toy to play with.. only ever played strat type guitars. still very attached to the 'banez though, have alot more love for it compared to the strat.. which is odd, because the strat's my first guitar. after the 'banez came home with me, the strat has really been neglected- i hardly ever take her out to play. sometimes it makes me feel a little bad- cos i feel she deserves to be played and given the attention she deserves. much as i love the strat's neck and how she feels overall.. i guess i'm a humbucker person at heart. so i'll probably sell her to someone who can better love and appreciate her. having problems letting go though.. used to seeing her at her corner of the room la.. sigh. at least i don't have to sell the 'banez to get the orville- which is what terry is actually having to contemplate. selling his first guitar to get that guit at BW.. i can actually understand how he feels.. =\

been wanting alot of things lately, and gas is obviously rearing its ugly head at the wrong time. i blame school! fucking stress with too much work and quizzes. sometimes it helps when i have something to look forward to. just heard about a7x and the taste of chaos tour. lydz and co all wanna go.. maybe we can go together finally! no more repeats of dt wuss out and such. i wonder how much the tickets are though.. the orville is probably going to cut deep into the savings.

meet the man who inspired me to get a strat in the first place! i don't care about people who hate on john mayer, that "wtf but he plays pop!". haters who say that have obviously never seen JMT play together. you can't deny the man can play. i know he looks goofy in that pic but i like it LOL. its like "heh heh. look at my fans! heh heh." i'm currently playing his latest live album "Where the Light Is" on repeat. have the dvd too! i really, really like the acoustic section. he plays neon, stop this train, in your atmosphere, daughters, and free fallin'. all JM favourites for me. feel good music, seriously. and these all have really good lyrics.

so afraid of getting older
i'm only good at being young
so i play the numbers game to find a way to say my life has just begun

i'm glad i met you when i did. you just make me smile :]

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